this picture has particular meaning to me, yes it is of me but i remember this picture being taken i remember what i felt i remember where i was standing i remember the circumstances around it and i will never be able to put into words the way i felt but it good i was alive not in the sense of breathing alive but in my mind i was feeling i want to feel that way all the time, i want to have that feeling 100% of the time. i can dream right? well i certainly can and i have a goal now and it is to feel this way and to find my inner happiness to find out who this 38 year old person is to find the little girl that got lost when i got all wrapped up in the twist and turns of other peoples life and all their emotions and the guilt that went along with it if i didn't do what they wanted me to do or to be what they wanted me to be. where is the women that can be happy and joyful? time to find her sooooooo watch out. i have a feeling this may be a bumpy ride. but i know that through the love of jesus WE can do this. he wants this for me...